Life in the fast lane.

“In sacrifice, I am the food of kings,
And to those who sacrifice joyously, I distribute the fruits.”
–from the Bāṣkalamantra Upaniṣad

Today is Bhīma Ekādaśī, the one Ekādaśī fast that holds the merit of all twenty-four; it is a very strict fast that proscribes both food and water. Since I do have work today, I am abstaining from food only, and willing my insistent belly to quiet down for a little while.

Fasting is useful to reveal the dark smudges on the soul; it isn’t only in the cups that you can tell a person’s full measure, but after a day without food as well. And one of the reasons I don’t like to fast is because I discover what a short-tempered grouch I can be. It seems that much of my bhakti is fueled by peanut butter; I’m devout and calm when well-fed, shaky and irritable when hungry. It’s like the Cookie Monster is alive, real, and writing this blog.

Yet today has been different. Mid-day a euphoria began, as I realised a most excellent purpose of fasting: not to past a test or to cultivate endurance, but to sharpen the hunger for Lord, to turn the force of a voracious appetite to Him. How marvelous, such an opportunity, such a universe. On my lunch break, I fed devotion with dandelions and butterflies and sunlight, and chanted while walking through a park, and forgot stomach pangs.

This small realisation has not shattered the walls of ignorance, to be sure. But it is a blessing nonetheless, to tilt this jewel of existence and see a new facet revealed by illumination.

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8 thoughts on “Life in the fast lane.

  1. JBJ 31 May 2012 at 16:58 Reply

    What a lovely image of you chanting with flowers and butterflies. Thank you for sharing that moment, you really made my day with that. :)

    • Kāmya 01 June 2012 at 13:29 Reply

      The loveliness is His alone; I share these moments not to glorify myself, but as praise and thanks to Him who grants them. =)

  2. lykeiaofapollon 31 May 2012 at 17:04 Reply

    I occassionally fast, and have found it ultimately be a very rewarding experience :) So good for you for sticking to it!

    • Kāmya 01 June 2012 at 13:27 Reply

      :preens: Oh, wait…prideful posturing about fasting isn’t the reason for fasting, is it? DOH!

      By the way, I am four chapters in to “Crowned With Nine Rays” and really loving it so far. I won’t say you should be “proud” of the work because that is :also: missing the point, but I do hope you have daily joy from the many wonderful activities – writing, creating art, and serving your Lord – which you have been blessed in doing well!

      • lykeiaofapollon 01 June 2012 at 18:30 Reply

        LOL It is nice to feel good about one’s accomplishments so long as we don’t loose sight of why we do them :)
        I am glad you are enjoying Crowned with Nine Rays. I am working on a second addition in which I am going to rearrange some things, add new research and also add some practical things like a section with some of my favorite compositions in honor of Apollon. Since you are already reading this one I will have to send you the updated pdf to browse through when it is finished at a later date ;)

        • Kāmya 04 June 2012 at 07:42 Reply

          I would love that. :)

  3. Mahalaya 01 June 2012 at 07:12 Reply

    I am a die hard faster. Not really been able to since last year and the a-fib deal:P But, i know the place you are… and i am so happy you shared this. Have a wonderful weekend<3

    • Kāmya 01 June 2012 at 13:15 Reply

      Afib or no, I admire your strength. Primary Vata dosha in my constitution means that fasting is very difficult for me, physically, mentally.

      You have a wonderful weekend too. <3

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